Some years ago I wrote an essay about the experience of being 'not recommended for training' and I still occasionally get asked for a copy. 

You can read it in its original form ( a bit rough at the edges and very much an average kind of essay for a ministerial training course) here, and it can be used freely as long as you let me know and acknowledge me if you quote extracts elsewhere.

I hope to have an updated and more chatty version available here soon.